Thurs,21/05/09
haiz...hi there readers...fyi...my world still suck for me...oh how i miss my usual kecha nak mampos....i really do...i used to read other people's blog and there, i would read lyke how their lives r fruitless,meaningless, in dismay, complicated, unpredictable, SUCK, and many more negative things and i really don't know wat they really mean...BUT....now i know.....
now i feel lyke everything is against me...laptop stolen...got warning letter.....felt so useless....i dunno y but seriously...everything is against me...
there r times wen i felt lyke just laying flat on the ground,facing the clouds and just watch them float by...haiz....
i'm no longer d man hu can resist any stress...any fucking criticism...any negative opinion...i'm really weak now...i think i'm going to depression!!! shit man....all thanks to d stolen laptop incident...if only i was rich...i cud just forget bout the whole incident...but now i cant....
i would cry everytime wen i go 2 slp wenever i think bout all d things dad r happening against me...how i wish i could just scream my lungs out and d lappy will appear in front of me...hahaha....
i dunno y....but even in dis kind of situation i can find sumthing lame or funny to talk about...i think dads just me....but sumtymes...wat u guys do not know is dad...behind dos laughter r actual tears n agony dad i m just waiting to pour out...but i do not no hu...d pain dad i m feeling now..both mentally n physically r just too much...
nowadays..i m more sensitive in a way that i m more angered n frustrated...even at d slightest thing...that's y...i have decided to keep mu mouth shut and b a away from any1 dad pushes me down( not literally, i'll punch dad person if he dare to push me)hahaha....
Oh ALLAH, i supplicate 2 u n only u...please make me peaceful both in my heart and my soul...i seek help from,no1 except u....here lies ur humble n weak servant....please lend me ur strength in order for me to get thru dis stage of my life ya ALLAH....i cant bear any of it anymore...
haiz....dos hu r reading dis post of mine...please do supplicate for my well being....
dis stage of my life is really d point where all of my attributes r being tested....i hope i get out of it victorious..amin!
my kecho frens(arif,udin,hafiz,mar,jan.fee,mus,is,zara)...if u reading dis....i wanna tell u all dad i really miss u guys n just to let u guys know...my life revolves around u guys....u guys r my ecstacy.....i cant live without u guys....;P
